Trinity,
This day was the day you were born. You were my fourth baby so I figured I was a pro at it. Boy was I wrong. Many hours it took for you to finally show us your beautiful happy face. You were perfect. Not a single thing wrong with you. I was so happy to have you in my life. Your brother and sisiters wanted to help in any way they could. Your daddy protected you and had to pry you out of my arms.
The night before we spent the night and Shane and Ashley's house. You played with Aiden. You took a bath with him. It was so cute. You two splashed and had a fun time. When we got home your hair was so cute. It had curled itself on top of your cute little head. You helped mommy, daddy, and mema get our bedroom straightened up. We just laughed because you were so proud of being able to climb the slide to get to the top of your brother and sisters bed. I was so happy that we finally got your crib put up and ready for you to finallly sleep in. You loved sleeping in your crib. It was your own space. You slept so peacefully that night. 
June 10, 2008 Tuesday
I once again did my morning routine of getting up sneaking out of the room as to not wake Tim, or the kids. I went downstairs got ready for work and headed out the door. I am not exactly sure on the times so forgive me for not letting you know them. Tim had called and told me that he was running late getting the kids to summer school. I decided that "hey a bag of pop corn sounded pretty good." So I headed downstairs to get a bag of popcorn out of the vending machines and started poping it. Then Tim calls me... I could not understand a word he was saying, he sounded honestly like a girl. Then I made out "They are saying Trinity is dead". My jaw dropped and I froze, right there in my tracks. The only thing I could say was "No she is not, take her to the hospital, meet me at the hospital! She is NOT dead". Then I hung up on him. I ran upstairs grabbed my stuff, told my boss something was wrong with the baby and ran out of work. I called Tim on my way back out and demanded he take her to the hospital. I could not think at this point in time. I remember trying to collect my cool. So I called my brother and asked him what he was doing, he had just got out of the shower and was getting ready to have breakfast, he had pictures for his real estate job, a meeting for work, and had basically a busy day. I said, Ok, and then I lost it I told him that Tim just called and said Trinity was dead and i didn't know what to do. From there a spiral of events happened. He and I planned on meeting at QT by his house. I knew he could get me to my baby faster and it was probably alot safer than me trying to drive myself plus I would probably have been pulled over lord knows how many times. So I started calling family. I called my dad, I made it a point not to call my mom because I knew this could really hurt her more than what it was going to do already. My father was down at the Lake of the Ozarks for a meeting and was over an hour from my mother. I was so worried someone was going to tell her first. But like a jet plane he flew to get to her. I don't know if it was just timing or what but normally he does not answer his phone when he is in meetings all day but he did this time on the first ring. I was bawling at this point and he told me that I needed to pull over and calm down for a minute. (I stopped my crying, but I didn't pull over, sorry dad) I just needed to get to Jeff. So my aunt Susie called also and I talked to her she was trying to get ahold of her boss so she could leave she worked about 5 minutes from my brothers house. I had called Leslie also to see if she made it there but for some reason it seemed like it was forever for her to get there. I made it to QT and jeff jetted me up to Kearney. At this point the paramedics had talked to me and I knew what she was saying just didn't want to believe it. I gave the phone to Jeff for the lady to talk to him cause I just couldn't understand what she was saying. Susie was on her way and meet us at Kearney to ride there with us. Grandma and Grandpa Taylor were headed to Maysville and Taylor Ann was with them. I knew Taylor would need her mom so Jeff and I waited for her. She finally arrived and we flew up to Maysville. We called family all along the way. I called Tim's phone again and heard Leslie screaming, at that point I think I accepted what had happened and knew that this was not just a horrible horrible nightmare and even though it would be a horrible nightmare for the rest of my life it was my true life that i was living. We just got passed Osborn junction and Jeff helped prepare me for what was about to happen. I would be questioned by police and about any abuse, neglect or anything that might have happened. There would be paramedic, and police all around. I was never going to be ready for what I was about to see. We pulled up to the house and if you couldn't tell by the number of vehicles that was surrounding my house which one it was you would have been crazy. Paramedic, sheriffs cars, maysville police car, friends and familys cars were everywhere! There were people standing outside, Leslie ran out to hug me and I just shoved her away, I wanted my baby! I ran inside and just that same amount of people were inside you could barely move. They told me she was on the couch, she was covered by a from blanket, I went up and uncovered her face. And just lost it. Blood had pooled on her forehead. I cried and cried, and dry heaved, as much as I want to forget that I couldn't breath. Then finally one of the paramedics asked me if I wanted to hold her. And I said yes. So i sat down in the chair as if I was holding an infant and just rocked her. Bubbles were coming out of her mouth and nose since the gasses were slowing being release from her body. She was so cold and alls I could think of was just warming her body up and bringing her back. I told her she could wake up and I would not be mad at her for playing this cruel joke. Just baby please wake up. I gathered up the strength and stood up so Tim could sit down and hold her. Once he did I turned and just bawled right in Shane's arms. I couldn't stand what was happening to all of us. This was not fair. Once Tim finished the lady asked if i wanted her back but I told her if I took her back she was not going to get her out of my arms again. So they wrapped her up like a new born baby and carried her outside. They got in a van and drove away. I was pretty numb at this point in time. What does a person do from here? What happens now? Then I started thinking, where is Alexis? I knew Desi and Cole were at summer school, but where was Lexi?? Thankfully Ashley had her playing away from all the commotion and emotion. Now the question was how were we supposed to tell your brother and sisters that you had grown your wings?
How could we break their little hearts? You taught the so much in the time that you were with us. You showed them how to love unconditionally. You were the light in their life, and now you were gone. To look over us for the rest of our lives. You have helped us all grow in ways that we will never know. You will forever be missed baby girl! But you will never ever leave our hearts.
Grew your wings on June 10, 2008.
This day was the day that changed everyone's lives forever!! I (mommy) was at work and daddy had taken Deserea and Coleman to summer school. He went upstairs to check on you and found that you had passed. Mommy rushed home and could not believe it. Life had flashed before my eyes. You were so happy the night we put you to bed for the final time. I never expected to receive a phone call saying that my baby was gone. A mother should never have to go through this type of pain and sorrow.
